This too, has passed

48 hours ago, I jumped off a huge cliff...metaphorically. I don't know why, I don't where it came from, I just knew it was time to take the dive...metaphorically. I took to social media and I went public with the abuse I endured as a child. I didn't make this decision lightly. I wrote out [...]


To tell the truth

When I was younger, I lied. A lot. I don't know if I was a pathological liar but I think I was pretty close. I started lying as a way to avoid the wrath of authority figures (hello, mom and dad), it was like a survival instinct. Then, as a teenager, I started lying to [...]

I’m not doing too bad after all

I met my aunts yesterday for lunch. I adore these women. They are warm and loving. No matter how long it is between visits, I always feel so welcomed and loved when I'm around them. Yesterday though I felt a new feeling, a kind of validation. I don't know where it came from, they didn't [...]

Gettin’ on with the gettin’ on…

Where to first semester of college is done, only 6-7 more to go! I managed to get by with 3 A's and B. They could have been better but I lost my happy place for a few weeks in the middle there. I'm already a day into the next semester but with only 2 [...]

I always feel like somebody’s watching me…

I've had, let's call it, a meditative epiphany. I was meditating and I asked the universe for clarity and guidance and It gave me both. I am a professional self sabotager in almost every area in my life, it's just my way, it always has been. I'm also one of those people who wish they [...]

You’re my wonderwall…

Well the treadmill earned its keep today. Since I got it up and running I've only been using it to walk on an incline. This is partly because I'm worried that I'm too out of shape to run and also because the console wasn't secured yet. I secured it last night and decided to do [...]