Hi, my name is Dawn and I have no idea what I want to be when I grow up. I felt that this was okay when I was a teenager. I mean, what teen knows exactly what they want to be as an adult? I was even okay with in my 20’s because I was supporting myself and had a military career. Now, I’ve left the military to get an education and pursue my dreams but I have no idea what my dream is. My ultimate end-game dream is to have my own farm and/or animal rescue in the country but to get to that point I need income and to get income I need a good job. I don’t want to flip burgers or answer phones to get there, I want a career, something I work for and something I love. My dream career would be to get paid obscene amounts of money to write my life stories ala Chelsea Handler or Tina Fey which is pretty narcissistic for a single girl with only fur children. Also, there are 2 problems with that dream:
- I am not nearly as funny or interesting as Chelsea Handler or Tina Fey.
- I am not nearly as good a writer as the aforementioned ladies and almost every other paid writer out there.
Don’t get me wrong, I think my content is moderately decent otherwise I wouldn’t dare put it on the interwebs for all to see and criticize. A few weeks ago one of my professors refused to grade one of my writing assignments because she found more than 4 mistakes in the first paragraph. This was a free written assignment, no APA formatting or references required and it was so bad in the first paragraph she made me re-write it and re-submit. Yes, I know I can learn better writing skills and it’s definitely something I want to commit time to in the future but I don’t know if I want to commit thousands of dollars and 3 years to it. Also, I want to help people. I love the idea of my writing reaching out and helping people who are in a difficult time like so many writers have done for me, but I don’t know if it will fill my cup the way something like counseling or social work would.
Yep, that’s what I’m lean towards: counseling or social work. Public Health is in the mix too because that’s what I did in the military. Having an abundance of education options is hardly a problem but for someone who has no idea what she wants as a career, it’s very confusing and time is ticking. For the last year or so I’ve been looking to being a Physician Assistant but as someone who doesn’t care for bodily fluids and broken bones, it’s seeming like a dubious career field. Seriously, I recently had a panic attack just reading about a dislocated shoulder.
I’m not making any immediate decisions though. I’m seeing a doctor this week for my anxiety and I’m waiting to see what her treatment plan for me is. Whatever it is (hopefully some kind of medication) I’m going to give it until the middle of June to see how it works before I make a decision. It’s been kind of an overwhelming week and I want to get my head straight before I talk to an adviser and change my whole education map for this. I know a lot of people will say ‘I’m XX years old and I still don’t know what I want to be.’ That’s cool for them, but I want to figure it out already.